these city lights only shine down for you

Vampire, werewolves and girls! OH MY!

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 21:16:16 GMT

Sigh. I'm still in shock. It was so unreal & unexpected! Oh well ... at least it gives me a reason to blog in my livejournal! Hehe!

Breaking Dawn

Wed, 06 Aug 2008 23:04:26 GMT

Hm. So I think I've found it necessary to blog about this, since no one else is done the book & if I keep quiet any longer I'll explode.

Straight down to the point, I liked it more than I disliked it. I think it's fair to say that no one walked out of that book thinking "OMG THAT WAS THE GREATEST THING EVER". It had it ups & it had it's downs.

I can live with everything ... from the typical for-seen Jacob imprinting to the lack of detailed sex (I'm not sick, you wanted it too!) ... but one exception I was disappointed with was the ending. No fight!? No namadic killing!? No vegetarian killing!? I mean what was the point of saying Bella has a great power & all the other witnesses powers if they weren't gonna end with a big bang? Breaking Dawn ... the finale ... no fight. Wow.

epic win!

Sat, 26 Jul 2008 06:00:20 GMT

This comic-con madness is just ... pure madness! So I'm extremely lame & I freak out over the tiniest Twilight resemblance to myself. For example me having the same purple jacket as Bella seen here and me wearing it (LAWL ultimate fail picture). Therefore I'm extremely stoked over the fact that Taylor and I made similar poses!

And yes, I do consider that a sign of serendipity. And I totally took that picture WITHOUT even knowing or seeing any of the Comic-Con pictures. The Love God's are definitely trying to tell me something ... sigh ; I'm extremely lame.

worlds that don't belong

Thu, 24 Jul 2008 01:58:17 GMT

This is my last of the series fanmix! It features song from all three (Edward, Jacob and Bella) perspective. Hope you enjoy it, loves. Peace & comments ;D

Broken Watch - Orson / download
I see this as Bella song for whenever Edward leaves, but of course change change all the
"Girl" reference to something more masculine. Real catchy song as well, btw!
---
My senses stop making sense
No wait, that don't make no sense
I get thrown off by my own balance, baby

These city lights, only shine down for you
This place is just too big without you
I just don't know, what it is about you
I just know that, I'm no good without you

~~Girl~~ you gotta know, everytime you go
out the door that it's not alright
~~Girl~~ you gotta know, everytime you go
out the door that it's not alright, It feels like everything stops
Just an old broken watch, when you're not around

There For You - Flyleaf / download
Bella's feeling guilty towards Jacob. They're supposed to be friends, no matter what but it's
not happening and Bella knows she plays a big role in that.
---
Sometimes I'm a selfish fake
You're always a true friend
I don't deserve you
'Cause I'm not there for you
Please forgive me again

I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to
Runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you

Sway - The Perishers / download
This whole song in every single aspect is freaking spot on with Bella and Jacob
---
I talk to you as to a friend
I hope that’s what you’ve come to be
It feels as though we’ve made amends
Like we found a way eventually

It was you who picked the pieces up
When I was a broken soul
And then glued me back together
Returned to me what others stole [...]

I look at you and see a friend
I hope that’s what you wanna be
Are we back now where it all began?
Have you finally forgiven me?

You gathered my dreams in
When they all blew away
And then tricked them back into me
You saved me I was almost dead

A Lonely September - Plain White T's / download
This is my personal favourite Jacob song. I think this really portrays how Jacob is feeling
when he and Bella weren't speaking & all the other times they just couldn't be together.
---
I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

Realize - Colbie Caillat / download
Okay. I know. I'm sorry, it's another Jacob song. But I love him kay!? Anyhoo, this
is Jacob wanting Bella to realize what he ... well ... what he realized. Lawlz, fail.
---
But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

Work - Jimmy Eat World / download
Last Jacob song for real now! Team Switz ftw ;D Anyways, I always imagined this song
playing in the background for the Eclipse movie, when Jacob 'saves' Bella at school on his bike!
---
All I can say
I shouldn't say
Can we take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time

Question - Old 97's / download
Holla Edward! This is such a cute song! It reminds me of when Edward proposes *ultimate squee*
---
She woke from a dream
Her head was on fire
Why was he so nervous?

Some day somebody's gonna ask you
A question that you should say yes to
Once in your life
Baby tonight I've got a question for you

Stolen - Dashboard Confessional / download
This song, oh lordie lordie, this song. I love this song! It just screams Edward and Bella.
---
We watch the season pull up its own stakes
And catch the last weekend of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced,
Another sun soaked season fades away

You have stolen my heart

Last Request - Paolo Nutini / download
K, I lied. THIS is the last Jacob song. And a darn good one, mkaii? This is an amazing song
for when Jacob's about to leave & fight Victoria and the new borns. He becomes sly & asks for one request .
---
I just want you closer,
Is that alright?
Baby let's get closer tonight

Grant my last request,
And just let me hold you.
Don't shrug your shoulders,
Lay down beside me.
Sure I can accept that we're going nowhere,
But one last time let's go there,
Lay down beside me

We Are Broken - Paramore / download
I think this song just suits the whole vamps & werewolves situation. Yay for Paramore!
---
I am outside
And I've been waiting for the sun
With my wide eyes
I've seen worlds that don't belong
My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize
Tell me why we live like this

Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me

Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh, the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

BONUS TRACK: The Girl - City and Colour / download
This is like (in my opinion) the greatest Edward-to-Bella song. EVER. You must download this!
---
You don't ask for no diamond rings,
No delicate string of pearls,
That's why I wrote this song to sing,
My beautiful girl.
(I know you're all "aww"-ing. Go download it already!)

thank you mintyapple,

Sun, 20 Jul 2008 11:45:38 GMT

Well, I'm quite proud of myself for finally getting the hang of livejournal.
Perhaps, I'll actually start using this as a journal instead of a P.D.A.T (Public Display of Affection for Twilight). Where to start? Besides Twilight -yes, I'll shut up already- I am having an amazing summer. The typical butterflies in the stomach feeling, never being at home, being spontanious & just living. It's all so great. It's 4:43 am. I should probably head off now.

this is my sundown

Wed, 25 Jun 2008 11:49:55 GMT

Here's my second fanmix. It's based on events in New Moon from all Jacob, Bella & Edward's perspectives. Please don't bother with the Jacob/Edward "omg, I HATE HIM!!1!!1!ONEONE!" because I'm Team Switzerland and all bashing will be unnecessary (=

Hanging by a Thread - Nickel Creek
download

There's a kind of emptiness that can fill you
There's a kind of hunger that can eat you up
There's a cold and darker side of the moonlight
And there's a lonely side of love

With you here, baby I am strong
No sign of weakness
With you gone, baby I am hanging by a thread

Clearly, this is when Edward leaves Bella. She's hollow, empty and lifeless.

Think Of You - A Fine Frenzy
download

It's one hundred and nine degrees in this crowded room
No room to breathe with walls as cold as a gallery
This is no place for me
Such hard faces set in smoke
The smell lingers in my clothes
It's a bad night to be alone
But that's the way it goes

And I think of you whenever life gets me down
I think of you whenever you're not around
And you rest your bones
Somewhere far from my own
Yeah, but you still pull me home

Just to warn you ahead of time, I'm a major A Fine Frenzy fan. I realize I have
3 songs from her on here, but I can incorporate all her songs into Twilight. No joke.
I should make a fan mix .. *light bulb!* Anyways, this song as well is Bella's routined
life after Edward has left her and has discovered danger let's her hear Edward's voice.

Near To You - A Fine Frenzy
download

Are lyrics and reasoning really necessary for this song?
No? Yeah. That's what I thought too.

Ashes and Wine - A Fine Frenzy
download

Don't know what to do anymore
I've lost the only love worth fighting for
I'll drown in my tear storming sea
That which show you, that which make you hurt like me

All the same
I don't want mudslinging games
It's such a shame
To let you walk away

Bella wants Edward to realize how much his leaving is hurting
and slowly wrecking her. She goes out and does dangerous things just
to hear his voice again, but realizes "he's not coming back".

All Around Me - Flyleaf
download

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

Take my hand I give it to you
Now you own me All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you, I believe

After her long hiatus of anything Cullen-related and her zombie life,
Bella hears Edward's voice for the first time in Port Angeles.
She continues hearing his voice every time she puts herself in danger.

Secret Oath - The Spill Canvas
download

I'm rackin my brain
Trying to comprehend, how for some unknown reason
Our status will remain as friends
I'm destroying my mind
Trying to understand how with little to no effort
You've got me eating out of the palms of your hands

There was not a single spark
When my lips landed on yours in the dark,
But regardless of what happens next
You're my beloved, you just don't know it yet

Tonight I made a secret oath
To keep chasing after you
And I am not going to stop
Whether you like it or not

So, when I heard this song. I freaked. It's perfect! Jacob is loving Bella
more and more everyday, but clearly Bella isn't ready to take that step.
But Jake lets Bells know, he's not gonna give up.

I'll Be Your Mirror - Clem Snide (or The Velvet Underground)
download

I'll be your mirror
Reflect what you are, in case you don't know
I'll be the wind, the rain and the sunset
The light on your door to show that you're home
When you think the night has seen your mind
That inside you're twisted and unkind
Let me stand to show that you are blind
Please put down your hands
'Cause I see you
I find it hard to believe you don't know
The beauty you are

*Squeeee* Such a cute song! Anyways, this is just a song that reminded me
how Jacob is Bella's sun. And he's always there to put a smile on her face,
let her know that she's worth it (yes, I know those are Jasper's words, but it fit perfectly okay!?)

Please Be Patient With Me - Wilco
download

I should warn you
When I'm not well
I can't tell
Oh, there's nothing I can do
To make this easier for you

You're gonna need to be patient with me

Bella feels terrible for laying all her vampire problems on poor werewolf Jacob.
So she's warning him that if he's sticking with her, he's gotta be patient with her.

My Sundown - Jimmy Eat World
download

I see it around me, I see it in everything.
I could be so much more than this.
I said my goodbye's this is my sundown.
I'm gonna be so much more than this.

Good goodbye lovely time.
Good goodbye tin sunshine.
Good goodbye I'll be fine.
Good goodbye, good goodnight.

Edward convincing himself that leaving Bella is best for the both of them.

Fix You - Coldplay
download

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Jacob fixed Bella up. Made her smile, laugh and play.
He also made a promise to always be there for her. No matter what.

Jealous of the Moon - Nickel Creek
download

Staring down the stars, jealous of the moon
You wish you could fly.
But you're staying where you are
there's nothing you can do
if you're too scared to try.

Why don't you call me, I could save you.
Together we'll find a God we can pray to that will take you by the hand.

I hate to see a friend of mine,
Laughing out loud when she's crying inside,
but you've got your pride.

Jacob's thoughts when he realizes (at first) how badly broken Bella is.
Behind her attempted smile and humor, well ... there was nothing.

Breathe Me - Sia
download

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Bella asking and wanting Jacob to be there. They may get into trouble,
but Bella always ends up getting the worst of it all. And she needs Jacob there.

You Picked Me / An Edward & Bella Fanmix

Sat, 07 Jun 2008 22:07:07 GMT

My first fanmix based on events relating to Edward and Bella in Twilight. Enjoy!

I Never - Rilo Kiley
download
I'm only a woman
Of flesh and bone
And I wept much
We all do
I thought I might die alone
But I had never (x11) met you
So baby be good to me
I've got nothing to give you, you see
except everything, everything, everything, everything

This is how Bella feels when it comes to Edward's love for her.
She constantly mentions how she's so plain and normal for Edward
and she is giving him everything she can offer.

You Picked Me - A Fine Frenzy
download
And all I can say
Is you blow me away

Like an apple on a tree
Hiding out behind the leaves
I was difficult to reach
But you picked me
Like a shell upon a beach
Just another pretty piece
I was difficult to see
But you picked me

Edward and Bella both wonder why either one of them chose each other.

12:59 Lullaby - Bedouin Soundclash
download
It's silent in the early morning
The only sound is my breathing
As I lay awake not knowing
Where it will be I'm going

But I know
Time moves slow
At 12:59 I sing lullaby
And if you want me to sing you a song
I know that there's a 12:59 lullaby
Tonight

Edward's life before Bella was a drag. He was lonely and built up a shield
for himself that would soon be knocked down by Bella.

No One's Gonna Love You More - Band of Horses
download
But no one is ever gonna love you more than I do
No one's gonna love you more than I do

And anything to make you smile
It is my better side of you to admire
But they should never take so long
Just to be over then back to another one

No one's gonna love Edward more and no one's gonna love Bella more.

Falling Away with You - Muse
download
So I'll love whatever you become
And forget the reckless things we've done
I think our lives have just begun
I think our lives have just begun

And I'll feel my world crumbling,
And I'll I feel my life crumbling
And feel my soul crumbling away
And falling away,
Falling away with you

The beginning of Edward & Bella's epic love story in Twilight.

Somewhere Only We Know - Keane
download
I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

Edward's discovery of the meadow and his thoughts before Bella came
into his life. Also, his wanting to share this special place with her.

Dream Team

Thu, 05 Jun 2008 23:40:45 GMT

Pathetic. Only two entries, yet both are Twilight related. Stephenie what have you done to me!?

Enough moping around. Up until today, my friend Jayne and I were beginning to think we were the only two beings that didn't like Gaspard as Edward. Thanks to the dream team picspam @ lion_lamb I have realized we're not the only ones! Hurray, Hurray! Don't get me wrong, I do get nostalgic seeing how far this Twilight "casting" has come, but he's just ... not Edward-esque. Hayden Christensen was my personal Edward. I still wouldn't mind him for Edward. I was loving Emily as Bella, but I knew for a fact she wouldn't be Bella.

R. Spunk & KStew ftw!

What a Noob that Mae is ...

Wed, 26 Mar 2008 11:07:23 GMT

Grrr! I fail at livejournal.

But I met Robert, so it's okay :)
I will get the hang of this! I WILL!

~ Mae